Sunday, August 08, 2004

Having grownup kids at home is sometimes harder than having smaller kids messing the house with their toys.

As usual, I had trouble with Paul Denise on computer usage. Early this morning, he wanted to play Diablo on win98 OS while I haven't clean up my room yet. I have a mouse problem and cannot let him use it to play games that requires lots of mouse movement and clicking. As expected, he felt bad about it. The only way to pacify him was when I served pancakes for his breakfast. I guess he's real upset because he had eaten four pieces!

At twelve noon, I received a phone call from my father. He said he cooked "kiyampong", a rice cooked with some meat (chinese food), and I must send my son to pick it up. Still feeling bad, my son was hesitant to follow orders from me. I told him my father is asking siopao on his way to him so, he must buy Four Kowloon Dimsum's Jumbo Siopao, two for my father and two for my mother. When he realized he could play computer games at my sister's house, he pretended that he didn't liked to go but, saw him getting ready.

When I had a chance, I talked with Sweety Pearl, my only daughter, to allow Paul Denise to use her computer instead. But, she's tough on not allowing her big brother to use the old PC for playing games. After heated arguments, she uninstalled all her programs, shuts down PC and slammed the door of her room! Ouch! My little sweety is mad and didn't understand me. The new PC in my room was under her name, it belongs to her. But, while I haven't find a cheaper laptop for my personal use, it will remain in my room.

Until to this writing, I didn't know what has happened with the computer. When Paul Denise arrived home, he didn't know what has happened while he's gone. After I prepared their dinner, I stayed in my room and updated my blogs. BlogShares Ideas Market was offline, pending bug fix, the longest ever since I started playing on BlogShares last January (this year).

Anyway, I just wish that my children will somehow understand me. I want them to share the old PC equally for their school projects instead of buying another one for Paul Denise' usage.

This evening, my eldest son, Junjun, called up from Saudi Arabia. He wanted to leave his present job because someone is offering him a better pay which is equivalent to 400% of his current salary. I got hysterical upon knowing his plans. He has signed two years contract with his employer and he might be in trouble if he breaks it without valid reason. I scolded him and talked endlessly until he reminded me that it's an overseas call. He said he will explain everything with me by Friday on Yahoo!

Giving kids what they want is not always effective, just like what my father did. He's probably the most stingiest man I have ever known but, somehow, I should thank him for being one. I managed an independent life since I was 18 and I resolved whatever problems I encountered all by myself. Even if there were times I feel I couldn't find solutions, I turned to God for strength and guidance. And, thanks to God, after couple of years staying home, the kids are now back to school.

There were times I have fears and insecurities, but, as long as God is taking good care of us, nothing is impossible...